Wednesday, June 20, 2007 . 10:08 AM
well..so gd yet not so gd..seriously stressed up now..aft reading yest s mail..i m reali reali stressed..on e verge of breakin down..i reali tink i cant handle all tis by myself..wanna share but who reali cares n understand??
so many many rides up n down e coaster n i juz felt terrible..till yest s Qt,i released 1 burden..yet not fully i felt..i dunno..needed help though..guys,i hope i m not alone..i need ppl w mi to help mi thru too..can we all let s do it tgt?it s not a 1man s job..but it s ALL of us..i meant all pals....
crying out for help yet no1 is ther..felt helpless..felt lonely..felt useless..i m at e bottom of e valley now i felt..so many tings piling up..but i noe for sure..i m gonna b out of ALL these soon..i noe i can oways run towards You..onli You left now..thks for not forsakin mi..or rather thks for nv forsaking mi all these times..i love You..
well smt gd to share..despite all these..my bro was back hm yest n both of us couldn seem to get into slp though it s reali late le..n while he slp under my bed,we had a chat!!it s been long long time since we last chat or even tok to each other properly..thk God for tat man..he was kinda open to mi yest..but i pray it s not juz yest..
a sudden urge to hug my family mbs 1 by 1..reali appreciate u guys for evryting u guys hav doen for mi..i love u all...(learned to appreciate..treating each day like it s my last..leaving no rm for regrets) =)